But this must be what you were thinking of, what you would like to
use for your book. [[Strangely enough, some years earlier, when Satprem
was writing L'Orpailleur, Sujata had a vision in which she saw
him typing, and from the typewriter came, not typewritten lines, but
music! ]]
Yes, I would certainly like to....It will come. Ah, it will come! It's time for me to leave now. So there you are, petit; it will come. page 329 - Mother's Agenda, volume 2, 10th Sept. , 1961 |
But Sujata, for example, was completely, COMPLETELY free of the whole ... (what shall I say?) what could be called the unhappy aspect of her karma - completely free. For I know the people around me and what they carry with them very well, and there was nothing - just one thing remained, the one part that was rather constructive, so I had left that totally intact. And when the events of her past life were revealed to her, I took the greatest care to destroy the revelation as it was being given. And I did it ruthlessly. You see, it was like dumping a load of mud on someone completely unsullied, and I didn't let it happen (I couldn't stop what entered through her physical brain, but inwardly ... I utterly annihilated it). The only thing I left untouched was the constructive part of the bond that had existed between you two, and so when she met you, she.... That's all I left, because it was good, pure, lovely - it was good. But all the rest.... And you saw how strongly I protested when I was told she had committed suicide. "No, no, no!" I said; even if somebody with perfect knowledge were to tell me so, I'd still say NO. She is untainted by all that - pure - and I won't stand for someone pure to be soiled. She was so much my child that after her death everything was carefully cleansed, arranged, put back in place, organized, purified. So she returned unblemished and pure, and I don't want her soiled. You see, a grace is actually working to drive those karmas away - sometimes far, far away - and it's no good to call them back. I have had dozens of similar examples. page 63-64 - Mother's Agenda, volume 3, 3rd Feb. - 1962 |
For Sujata it's not quite so simple. From a strictly external standpoint, I have no doubt that it would be both pleasant and instructive. But Sujata is in a rather special relationship [with me] - in fact, she does the yoga without doing it; I mean she benefits automatically from the yoga that Sri Aurobindo and I do. And this would risk being damaged. page 163 - Mother's Agenda, volume 3, 27th May - 1962 |
What you're asking of Sujata is nothing short of sacrifice. Not outwardly, perhaps, but it would be a sacrifice for her. She would be sacrificing something to you, something very precious.... To help you she would have to sacrifice her own realization. Well, that in itself has a place in the spectrum of realizations. I understand.She would inevitably come into contact with other people. page 164 - Mother's Agenda, volume 3, 27th May - 1962 |
(Sujata's vision the night of April 1) One Thousand Years (original English) We enter the courtyard of a building, Satprem and I. We see sad faced people. Head bent, solemn and silent. The Mother is dead. Everybody thinks that The Mother is dead. A few are scattered here and there, individuals or groups of three or four. But most go out from a side door to our left. Another door is to the left at the top of a stairway which mounts from the court yard below and ends in a sort of bridge or passage. I see one or twopersons going out from this bridge-door. Turning to the right, this passage leads straight to the Mother's room. We enter Mother's chamber. The Mother is lying on a bed. She is dressed in white satin or silk (the couch also). Four or five people are inside, disconsolate. Slowly they wander out. One or two Pass to the adjoining chamber. Finally only Satprem and I remain. He is near the Mother's bed The Mother sits up and starts talking to Satprem. She is explaining to him about the transformation of the body. She talks for a long time. I am standing a little away and behind. Suddenly Sri Aurobindo beckons me from the adjoining chamber which is His. He too is lying on a cot. I draw near Him. He puts two fingers (index and middle) on my right palm, and says, "You have to carry faith and aspiration during one thousand years." Satprem and I come out from the Mother's chamber and take the passage leading to the left (exit) door to announce to the world that THE MOTHER IS ALIVE. My dream ends before we have crossed the threshold. page 123-124 - Mother's Agenda , volume 13 , 2nd Apr - 1972-1973 |
(Mother sees Sujata) Strange feeling.... Since last night, a strange impression that the Divine has become ... (how to formulate it?) like a golden Force pressing down like this (gesture of pressure on the earth). They alone, who by their aspiration are able to pass through to the Divine Origin, will escape catastrophes. There was a catastrophe in Madras: one of our best cars was in a very serious accident. Only those who have an aspiration, a sincere and unconditional aspiration towards the Divine, only they will escape - they will stand in a golden glory. Extremely interesting. [[Noted from memory. ]]page 175 - Mother's Agenda , volume 13 , 4th May - 1972-1973 |
The Force I spoke of yesterday is more and more active (gesture pressing down). The Action is becoming imperative. Crushing. page 180 - Mother's Agenda , volume 13 , 7th May - 1972-1973 |
(Mother sees Sujata. On this day, thirty-four years before, Sujata decided to stay with Mother. She was twelve and a half years old, the youngest disciple in the Ashram. She had made her first visit to Pondicherry when she was nine. She gives Mother a spray of "Service" flowers. This will be the last May 29th.) It's from your tree. (Mother holds the flowers for a long time, then gives them back to Sujata) I've put something there. For you and Satprem.page 194 - Mother's Agenda , volume 13 , 29th May - 1972-1973 |
(Mother sees Sujata, who has just lost her eldest brother, and she comforts her. This fragment of conversation has been noted from memory.) What has to be done for each one is done. Our consciousness is limited (microscopic gesture), it sees only a little part. The divine Consciousness is ... (gesture): it sees. What has to be done for each one is done. If someone has given himself to the Divine and trusts the Divine, the Divine looks after him. And ... (how to explain?) for instance, all that has to be done for you is being done every minute; and if you in turn ask the Divine to look after someone, that too is done. And done for the best. But this best is as the Divine sees it. You must be in peace. The peace of absolute trust. Peace has the power to annul the obstacles.page 211 , Mother's Agenda , volume 13 , 18th June - 1972-1973 |